My Heart Weighs Heavy

Man its been 12 days since my last blog. Now in the blogger world that must be a millenia and an eternity in the sometimes second by second world of video blogging. I want to start off positive today. I feel good about myself physically. I have this drive and determination that I've never had before. I have deep control of myself. I got to chill with Karen L. and Val today and I haven't done that in an eternity. It felt awesome too because I asked for this day off today and it was like the only break I'll get for the next three weeks. I can maintain though cuz im good like that. If I was like this in high school, I swear to Buddha I would've been at least top 10. We went to Huf today and I got to get 2 awesome Huf hats ^_^ so that's cool. Then we went to Forever 21 and I saw tons of cute girls while waiting for them to try shit on.

After that we went to go watch Batman. NO SPOILERS HERE!! Holy shit that was an awesome movie. Heath Ledger totally took that movies MVP award(not saying that because he died in real life). Christian Bale's voice as batman was funny. The movie is a bit long but all of it was awesome with a few minor misses but that's cool and forgivable. Overall 9.5/10

Now for the bad. I have to give away Angel >.< enough said.

Damn

I don't feel connected to anyone anymore. Or its like I feel like if I'm not there as much people won't connect with me or talk to me as much anymore. I've felt that way for a long time. Which true, some of my friends that I vibe with I can't even really pick up a conversation with them I only talk when they're all there. Iono can't really put it into retrospect because my mind feels numb from a lot of thinking today. Will talk about more some other time. Peace

Busy

I haven't been posting up in a minute. Been busy and tired. I haven't chilled with anyone since last Saturday. I need to find some time to chill with everyone. But yeah been busy because i started my summer of EOP at SFSU. First week was pretty boring. we're starting out with some classic conventional stuff such algebra and grammar starting. Then been working over the weekend. So yeah just been a struggle to find chill time for people and what not. I'm sorry guys. But I gotta start taking care of business now. My whole life I feel I've just been looking for fun and not really balancing that out with work, that and combined with the thought that high school is garbage and doesn't really do anything for you got me where I am right now. I need to take care of work for college because it's competitive and I actually want to go for a nice GPA now. So school and work are my priority now. Forgive me guys >.< Peace