Been A Long Time

Its been a minute since I've posted anything on this blog. I get lazy when i get to this website and when im about to write something, I'm life fuck it and then I go on to read Emerson's blog.
Anyways, so the news and whatnot for the past couple of weeks. Things were awesome until Karen broke up with me(we're still good friends though shit just didn't work out), and then my mom started cracking on me about that shit. It was not cool. I've been in a slump over the past couple of days, not about Karen, but about life I guess. I started focusing on how empty it kind of is, unless you stay true to some goals or find a purpose to go on. Since December I find I haven't really been focusing on anything, and I was really going through the whole sadness phase of friends leaving and what not, but then I realized hey that's what friends do, don't dwell on it, we have to move on. That's also been my whole philosophy for awhile, but I kind of lost sight of it for awhile, and I started putting happiness on a pedalstal, if that makes any sense at all. I talked to some people and asked what keeps them going, and I'm surprised to find that they're just as lost as I am.

On a lighter note I'll have 2,000$ stacked by the end of next week and start looking around for a car and whatnot. I think My limit is going to be like 13,000$ and I'll pay 300$ every month on it. I have to try and find a summer job though, if I'm going to keep up with payments like that, coupled with insurance and maintenance. I'm going to be broke, hahaha but it'll help me deal with the materialism issues I have, I don't need a lot of the things I want anyways, not to mention we're in recession so I have to tone a lot down.

Oh yeah i said i was going to take picture updates of my jeans, but I can't because I've lost my recharger chord and I have to go buy/find it. But there's some minor fading at the crotch area, nothing that's really big yet. I should take advantage of the big back pockets and put something in there, that will make an awesome fade look. Maybe a calculator??? We shall see.

Oh yeah went clubbing last night, and that's not my thing, maybe its because there was a bunch of white people or something, idk. After my bday I'm going to detox, and help my other friends do the same. I'm talking about Dale if you know the nigguh.

Thanx everyone for being here in my time of need, its good having friends like all of you when I look at life through my distorted eyes ^__^.